oh and happy halloween. and also happy birthday.

10:29 PM
im alone; out of your mind;

on a new journey of life
no many days when my secondary school journey ends
ordinary level is already more than half way through
it's this ordinary level that affected me
i studied more than usual
i played less than usual
i put more efforts than usual
i worry even more than usual
i pray more times and harder than usual
now it is time for me to move on.

i starts to enjoy life a bit more.
and of course appreciate things.
sec4 life is so fast.
weixuan will be there to say:'Good Job!'
followed by his pat on the back.
shixiang will be there to worry about everything in the world
weekang will be always be there.
yapseng will be there to fool around.
songyang will be there to find ways to improve himself?
yien will be there to get some space for himself
syjia will be there to praise herself
ziheng will be there studying and top for maths
amirul will be there to sing his favourite songs
ronald will be there to get accused for everything
so on and so fro.

i've been going through a lot.
why bother about how weird people's behaviours are?
why bother to hate him?
people is trying to get attention
thats how some people works
i don't hate him
i still treat him as a mild friend
words shouldn't be so harsh.
why should there be more foes?
it's already the end of the journey
you most likely won't meet him again.

my heart has grown larger
i started to really worry for my family
my fear for no good l1r5 grew.
i've have been trying to talk more.
you may not have a chance.
it's really really good to appreciate.
show more care and concern.
you will really shed tears if one day
they no longer support you.
i'm feeling the depth of my heart.

ordinary level.
urged me to improve english
i've tried. at least a bit.
it improved relations too.
people come together and study.
last time we only come together to play.
i lost focus,
on my computer.
only to think that i'll use it back after the examinations.
it is almost coming to an end.
increasing usage of electricity.
but i still hope i can go mjc.

for me to come this far.
family
friends
teachers.
for a tuition teacher to have the taught me about 7 years,
i really have to show my gratitude to her.
thanks all.

just now i walked past my kindergarten.
i saw the familiar teacher
she was still there.
it's already about 11 plus years.
i felt pleased.

there's a long long way to go.
indeed distant.
for all we'll meet again,
if god let our fate cross for once more.

and to a friend who i've avoided for around 2 months.
i think its really time.
to put things together.
it's the second time and a serious one.
and i'll tell you a secret.

"friendship is not just over a sms"

i will say i love all my friends.
including tuition friends.
have fun for god sake for the rest of your lives.

1:05 PM
im alone; out of your mind;

my brink


my friend


my partner


my land


my aim


my loneliness, my unhappiness


my life


my road





i'm lacking of something.
my ...

8:36 PM
im alone; out of your mind;

Let me share a story that somehow relates to my this life at this moment.
it's about two cats.
the first cat had eaten its dinner, and was sitting beside the unfinished food.
so it started looking around to find something to do.
then this other cat came out. it was hungry.
so it sorta approach the resting cat secretly.
the resting cat realised its presence.
and screamed at it.
the hungry cat was a bit scared.
then they stared at each other.
then...
(i shld have took a video of it or something, but it was so exciting that i missed that part)


the resting cat then say: 'aiya, give you eat la. i go somewhere else sit so i cannot see u steal my food.'

but then the resting cat was still abit angry. so it had bloodshot eyes. thats why the picture is abit the orangey.



"sian, don't bother about him already. let him eat ba. i'm kind"



'i tink i better check that he is taking good care of my food and not finishing them all.'



'everything's going fiinnnnn.....zzzzz'



so one continued eating while the other dozed off.



'i'm done! so full! so bored. i thot i going to fight him.grrrr.. '



so the food was left at where it was.........

*end*

so how was it? one approach the other. then the other one not happy, distant from the hungry one. finally the hungry one walk away, the cats left the food behind.
even if the sleeping cat woke up, the no longer hungry cat will not look for him anymore..

11:33 PM
im alone; out of your mind;

new blogskin. yay. laallalalala~~~OMGOMG.

i won't give way.
should i be benevolent?
what am i talking?
why shld i?
i've got my personality too.
i'm stubborn
what can u dO?

OMGOMG. jiana
old blog- insanitydrz-jvly3.blogspot.com

10:11 PM
im alone; out of your mind;