ytd, i duno wad happen to me. i jus happened to be depressed. not during the games carnival, but after the it. i felt this great obstacle. i tried to overcome it. but it doesnt seemed to be working. it struck at me. i was stupefied. the moments of laughters. the moments of sorrowfullness. they all just flashed past my mind. i wanted to stop myself from continuing thinking of these by standing rooted to the ground, but, apparently, my feet continued to move briskly. they just couldn't stop moving. why is this happening? moreover, i'm getting further away from all my fwens. i could not look back. its as though my feet wanted to bring me somewhere. a place whr i desired. a place whr i looked forward to. a place whr i placed my hopes. a place. a sacred one. i'm just recalling. wad good things, wad helpful things have i done in the past? i just cant imagine myself.

it started drizzling at 2.53pm. and rained quite haevily at 2.57pm. the guides n some scouts are rock climbing nw.. i think they probably have to stop due to the rain. just nw during meeting. me, weekang, xiaoli, darence were in the nccsea room. we were slacking. then juk fen came. they played soccer. then the most horrible thing happened. jukfen fought with darence. i was sort of earthstruck. i didn't do much. at first i was just watching. there's a reason behind this. not that i dun wan to help, ya noe..? then wk n xl asked me for help. i recovered frm my half-consciousness. my last time when i was involved in a fight.. was like in primary6 i tink. that time i was too young. violence was one thing that my fwens all have. but have they wondered, violence will solve problem wun they? i was still innocent. come to think of it, i've almost lost contact with all my pri sch fwens. that time, things were just easy coming. theres no sweat in doing anything. can play soccer freely, do things as we like. now? strictly taken care of. this is the difference between being a kid and an evolved kid, teenager. it was quite a bad experience being in a fight. why must they fight over such small matters? aint they just trying to play with one another? now in secondary sch, unlike pri, people gets stronger. will my injured hand be able to stop jukfen? his aggressiveness is just too overpowering. once we pulled him back, he empowered and forced himself forward in beating darence up. however. when then storm just stopped, when the clouds cleared, when the bright sunlight, once again, brought vision to the Earth, they will still be fwen. jukfen wanted to initial an apology to darence. he went looking around for him. well. a fwen is forever a fwen. maybe sometimes, one forced too hard on himself and others, that he lost his fwenships, and lost himself in the darkness. the bonds are even stronger now, with the scars of violence, with the memories of each other, flashing past right in the eyes.

now, the sky is really cleared. the sullen clouds had been removed. the ray of life shone brightly at us again. the trees are growing strong with the profuse sunlight. it's all over. the Earth is once again heated up. rainbows appear with the slightest amount of smiles.

isnt this cool? too bad dun hav the whole class.

yien sucking the index finger?

yien tio shot ar..? who is the murderer?

nikki, u crying ar? been rejected or something? my shoulder is here. you doesnt seemed to have red eyes leh.

so this is the mastermind out of my pictures in my phone. self-portrait of herself, her favourite move

amirul shielding kenneth.. lol. ~edited~



the process of an 'explosion'






i shall end here today. brighten up your day with a smile~ =) :)
take care~ with <3 my~

2:34 PM
im alone; out of your mind;