Tuesday, April 10, 2007
In the morning, everyone was trying to study every single pieces of notes on settlement for the test. As the day proceeds, strange things started to happen, and these happenings made me reflect hard on myself.
It was like while studying, when wx wanted to ask zh something, and hit him on his back, zh, in return, whacked wx back so hard that it could have cause slight injuries. zh seemed as though wx had owed him money in the previous life, whacked him like a father caning his child due to misbehaviour or maybe caught stealing.
i was wondering "what in the world has my fwens became?" "since when has zh became so violent? or perhaps i've been wandering about that i have became so 'out-dated' ? " As a result, wx became quite pissed and was wondering what he had done wrong. So, he lumbered off with a glum expression back to his seat. this resulted with no mood in continuing to study geography.
it was not long after wx had left the small congregation, that michelleaw came asking yi'en for some things. i can't remember what did she asked for, then yien answered one of her questions with the usual opposite answer. without any hesitation, mich lifted her hand n swung it with great force towards yien's head. my jaws were like, dropped at that very moment when this happened.
once again, i reflected to myself. "is that what friends are for? whacking each other so that to etch a deep impression? have i ever tried whacking someone that hard? if that is supposed to be true, then what about people who are involved in a fight? are they trying to make new friends?"
one more example is while everyone was on their way back to class after assembly, just outside General Office, yien pushed songyang without any reasons i supposed. Is it also one way to improve friendship? it has a high possibility that both parties will take it easy. Me, as a witness of this activity, and it's especially me, will think thoroughly like what i'm doing now. Violence is an act of aggression. Why is it that everyone has this kind of violent behaviour?
During fencing, the moment of excitements passed at the speed of light. the crucial moments when i finally had the chance to fence arrived. it was a rather bad decision to fence with yien. without any great efforts, i lost to yien unknowingly. it was as though i was a novice fencing with professional. with the defeat, i came alive. facing songyang was quite a brief, not that i am criticising him, but i had regained from the lousy behaviour i had during the fight with yien. next was zh. the cold sweat tickles down my throbbing temple. it will be a tough fight, a tough decision to attack, a tough decision to back off. i felt that during the 3 battles, i had improved great miles. maybe i was lacking confidence, but i pulled through and won zh instead. reading minds am i? the very moment when we were earthstruck, hesitation of the swift movements to make in every second. Seconds tickled by like the powdery sand of the ancient hourglass. with every points i made, i felt relieved. with every points he made, worries surrounded me like a heavy blanket. it was a very serious and important move to make, before checkmate.
visited the doctor after reaching home. while in the clinic, there were a few kids. there's one kid who was jumping about in front of his mother, she scolded him for not behaving. this reflects me once again, but in another way. how good will it be if i was still a child? i can have my free own thinking without any ones comments. jumping around, at free will, with the laughters of kids. the satisfactory on his face made me recall the young moments. then there is one girl who had been taken temperature with the ear thermometer. she was fascinated by the thermometer, with the 'beep' and also being inserted into the ear. she has such innocent thoughts that nobody really bothers about. she can be wondering what is that, can be interested by the sound. would any one of us ever be fascinated by the small thermometer just to take our temperature?
i finally finished this post. haha. thanks for reading. bye~